Living the Journey…

In the middle of the battle; feeling all alone

Afraid to ask for help, but I can’t do this on my own

I stand on what I know; can’t trust how I feel

Trying desperately to hold on to what I know is real

Feels like I am hurting the only ones who care

The burden that they carry is really mine to bear

I want to protect them…I wish there was a way

My mind is fearful and wants to run away

There are no easy answers; no quick fix this time around

I’ve all but given up that I will ever gain new ground

I struggle all the time with what to hold back and what to say

I don’t want to weigh down others with my issues every day

This constant turmoil in my mind is getting harder to let go

It is causing me to doubt myself and beginning to takes its toll

My faith is not in question here.  I believe, Lord, You are there

But I am losing this battle and not sure I even care

I pray that You will end this, and that someday I’ll be well

But how or when that happens…only time will tell