Waiting AGAIN…
Once again I stand in awe at the Awesome Hand of God. Time has come and gone. Emotions have been all over the map…and yet, in the midst of the chaos I have peace.
I have NO idea what God wants from me or for me, but I know I am in the middle of the moment when life is about to change.
The anticipation is suffocating. I know something is coming, but I don’t know what or when. I am not one of those people that enjoys surprises. I just don’t. I like to know what is happening. It is not that I am a control freak…well, maybe.
I don’t like to be bored either. I am not good at waiting. HA! That is all I have been doing this year. Praying for much grace!
It is not change that bothers me…not really. It is the moments right before that I do not enjoy. It is like swimming down too deep and trying to resurface. You can see the light and know that you are almost there, but you are just not sure you have the breath to make it.
I feel like I am on the edge and I just don’t know if I can take anymore…
I always laugh at the emotional journey in the Psalms. One moment David is praising God and the next he is whining about life. Then in the middle of turmoil, he praises God again.
I am so caught in the middle of THAT kind of life. Too much drama…yet, that is my present reality.