My Heroes
Standing still while the world zips by, a spectator to my own life… I watch as the story unfolds.
Everyone needs this to be the final chapter in the saga that plays out before me, but I am not sure we are finished here.
As much as I hate the daily play by play, I am trusting for the first time that there is more to this story.
I have said the words in desperation and in my heart I knew what my head could not understand. This is all much bigger than the pieces I hold in my hands.
I feel the pieces slowly coming together like a puzzle beginning to show it’s face. But the picture is still obscure with the holes and the mystery of what it is that we are seeing.
All those that started this journey with me are slowly fading away. Tired of the battle they have all given their parting words and well-wishes and have gone about their own lives. I don’t blame them really. I never expected them to stay.
But those who have stayed; those that love me enough to see this through to the end, who hold my hands when I don’t have the strength to stand…they are the real heroes to this story. Valiant courage hidden in the hearts of two of the most amazing children I have ever had the honor to meet, my beloved who has taken on more of the pain than was his to carry just to spare me from the battle, and my best friend who walks with me through the darkness of the valley. These are forever my heroes, my biggest supporters, and the people I am privileged to do life with every day.
They see me when I am invisible to the world, they hear me when my heart cries in silence, and they love me enough to give me strength to make it one more day. They believe in me when I doubt every breath I take, they understand the tears when grace is washed away, and they see my healing when all I feel is pain. Their faith, their strength, their love…these are the weapons that are winning this battle.
I may never understand. But I am convinced that all of this is part of my story. I am forever grateful that I am not alone. I will continue to trust in the Hands that hold my future as I hold tight to the hands that are here to walk with me through this journey…